This is a very exciting time for me.
On my not-so-very-good-days I’d say it differently.
I’m scared as hell!
The face of public education is changing. My job (urban grade 5-6 teacher in a once progressive school) is no longer to inspire and challenge kids. I’ve become part of a test giving data analysis machine. Once I’ve digested the data I follow (often) pre-prescribed lessons and procedures to plug the holes and raise the scores. I see no boat building, inflated cities or working hovercraft in the future (These are all projects that I’ve completed in my classrooms at this school). Much of the joy has left the building.
I was going to teach for five years. I was going to do something exciting and creative at the end of those five years. (To build wooden boats was the plan then. It’s still on the list.)
This morning I began to plan my way out. It’s not the first time and probably not the last, but by sharing in a public forum I hope to build a little dialog and some accountability.
Jim Eck, a ukulele and carving student and friend, and I exchanged a few messages yesterday. We were sharing a bit about being stuck. He ended his last message with, “You have such amazing talents.”
I’ve heard this stuff before. Three hundred and fifty years of Quaker heritage make these kinds of statements roll off my back. This time it didn’t. It was what I needed to hear — an unintentional pep-talk. (Thanks Jim!)
So this morning I began to really examine these talents. Along with the Quaker thing, I’ve a very informal approach to learning and teaching so I don’t often give my “amazing skills” the importance and weight that I should. They seem to just be things that I’ve picked up along the way. I also carry a very old load of weight from a grandfather and a father (both engineers and both named Keith Davis) that completely discounted most of my skills and talents. (My father once told me that I wouldn’t understand my parents’ failing marriage because I was only a teacher.)
An older teaching friend (and wise sage) tried to convince me of the value of my skills many times. I always shrugged and blushed a lot and went right on my way. (Hazel, you’ve always been right.)
Anyway, I began cataloging talents this morning. I didn’t get far. I listed a few that are particularly strong and that I do better than most folks. There are others.
I then focused on three, ukulele playing and building and carving birds. Now I’m brainstorming ways to make these skills into meaningful and creative work. Income. Fulfillment. Joy.
I’ve spent a lifetime learning cool stuff. I’m an expert at teaching this to others. This formula should work. It has to work.
Thanks for reading this far. I need your input and help.
I’ve a few ideas that I’ll share later today.